Do this and that. Run here and there. At the beck and call of work. Helter and Skelter ran the mind, trying to keep up with your to-do list.
Time seems to fly and your mind wants to keep up,but at the end of the day, you are where you started.
Questions run amok. Is it me? Why don’t things get done? How do I prioritize?
Or is it my environment?How can I put up with my boss?How do I handle the stress?
How do I manage the team?
Efforts seem to have progress and then out of the blue just turn futile. The results seem so close, yet so far.
And you try again,
To fail again.
What am I running after?
Am I improving my inner self because of this running?
How should I be more concious?
Am I failing because I am not concious?
Or am I failing because I am too concious?
When will life become effortless?
What should I do first?
Focus on the inner self or the outer result?
But by focusing on the inner self, I seem to go nowhere and you regret not trying for the result. Should I have tried more?
Work is never finished. And there’s always something more that you could have tried. You could have, may be if you had done that and so on. Your mind plays to produce so many ifs retrospectively, keeping you in a state of constant regret.
And then you are paralyzed by work. You freeze with the sadness and your own inadequateness. Why is this happening to me? I have the best of intentions. I know I have the potential to do it. I passionately want to do it.
You wallow in your sadness and lose a few days or maybe a few hours and then reality hits you and you run again. Run, run, run.
My mind sees a different reality. A reality where everything is organized. Where a system is in place. Where you have the time to do fulfilling work. Innovative work. Think about growth. Empathize with people and grow your people.
I know I will create this reality. It is in my DNA. It is in my blood.
But, when you are fire fighting, the question that you always ask is WHEN? When will I get there? What should I do now to get there? What should I do to get there quickly? How do I transform myself into the future me?
Meditate and see the cycles that you are stuck in. What happens repeatedly? Breathe it out. Don’t blame the external factors. They will melt when you change.
But am I such a state where my issues have manifested itself physically. And as you know physical ailment/injury is best treated at the physical level. Are we spirituality enough to cure your fracture from the inside?
The physical manifestations can be physically broken while you work on transformation. Physically to break things, get into a good routine. Grow good habits. And stick to it. Use your will power. Force yourself to do things.
And meditate. Meditate to transform.
Your routines will break. You will be weak and cheat. Get back to it. Stick to it.
Find small habits to do when you are restless and when you are looking for your phone to distract yourself. Watch your breath. Chant some Mantra. Clear your energy and clear your mind.
Attack it from both sides. Physical and Energy level. Results await.
Don’t be impatient my kid. For you the time is NOW.
Onwards towards eternal peace,